In Over My Head

Alright so I thought I could do this whole update everyday thing, but I can't. The only reason I am able to do it right now is because it is winter break. Also, I figure none of you will be checking this everyday. So I think I'm going to go back to a few weeks in between each post or when I need to share a life lesson. This is going to be the shortest post I've done because I haven't learned anything new since yesterday except that I hate the cold. So I am just going to sign off with a winter Garfield comic:

Every Moment Counts

So here's the thing. Everyone always complains about their parents and how they hate spending time with them. I realize that my relationship with my parents is much more healthy than most but I know that one day I won't be able to spend as much time with them as I used to. I'm already experiencing this now. I am in college so now the only time I can see my parents is during the school breaks. When I was a kid all the way up until high school, I was able to see my parents everyday. In 3 years I want to move to Colorado and my parents aren't coming with me. I will probably get married and have kids so I'll see my parents even less. So enjoy the time that you have with your family now. Because every moment counts. And in the blink of an eye it could be gone. 

I would like all of you to find someone in your life that you love and that you haven't seen in a while, and tell them that you love them. Well that's all for me today. Signing off with a Calvin and Hobbes comic:

Never Be Afraid To Ask For Help

So today I had to carry all of my ceramics cups, bowls, and plates back to my dorm room. The walk from my class to my dorm was 10 minutes and by the end of it my arms were dead. This may not be the lesson in this case but it is a good lesson to never be afraid to ask for help. Everyone who cares about you is willing to help you and if they aren't then maybe they don't care about you as much as you thought. Don't wallow in your own sadness or helplessness, ask for help!

I had an experience when I was in high school where I didn't ask for help when I was having an emotional crisis. I ended up breaking down and becoming emotionally unstable and I know I don't know who you are, but I never want that to happen to any of you or anyone, for that matter. Asking for help does not make you weak. If you try to fix the problem yourself first and you can't solve it, it is reasonable to ask for help. There is no shame in wanting help from someone else. Alright well that's all I have for you today. Signing off with a Christmas comic:

Christmas

So apparently one of my roommates in college has a blog that is updated every day!! I have no idea how she has time to do that! I am only doing this today because all of my exams are over and I'm going back home for Winter Break soon. And then it's Christmas time!! Whenever I think of Christmas, I think of eggnog, hot chocolate, pine trees, snow, and amazing breakfast every morning. I love being home from college for breaks because every morning my stepmom makes great breakfast meals! She makes eggs Benedict, pancakes, crepes, fruit bowls, and bacon. Over Thanksgiving break, on one of the days we just ate leftover pumpkin pie for breakfast. 

So I know before I said "one of my roommates" and allow to me explain. I have 3 other roommates so I am in a room of 4. I am also in a suite of 12 girls all together including me. There are 2 rooms of 4 and 2 rooms of 2. I know, it's break, too many numbers!! I have to take a math class next semester and I am dreading it. I wish I didn't have to take these GE classes because I don't even need math for my major. 

By the way, I applied to be an RA which mean Resident Advisor. So if I get that job I won't have to pay for room and board next year :) Fingers crossed! Okay I just realized that I normally have life lessons in these posts and at the moment I'm just talking about my life which most of you don't care about. So... life lesson... let's think.

Ah! I've got it!! Ever since I have been in college I have become a lot more giving and it has made my life so much more fulfilled. There is something about seeing someone's face when they receive a nice gesture or a gift. I encourage all of you to be exceptionally nice to someone today and try to see what I see. I am generally a giving person but recently I've kind of gone out of control. Anyway, enough about me, go enjoy your life. Signing off with a Garfield comic:

College

So I'm in college now!! Ohio State University b***hes!! I'm so smart! My roommate is amazing!! We are best friends!! Sorry I haven't written in this for a while but college keeps you busy! I just finished up with finals, so stressful!! I am an art education major so most of my classes are art except for the ones that I have to take. So of course I had to take psychology and it kicked my butt! I'm not good at the whole smart thing other than art. Well, I did get a B in the class so I guess that's better than most. Here is something that got me through finals week: 

Plus it's near Christmas time!! I'm already getting in the mood by listening to Christmas music. And, confession, I already decorated my tree before the beginning of December. I have already watched Love Actually twice and Elf once. If you haven't already seen either of these movies, I highly recommend it. 

Love Actually is a rom-com and Elf is a comedy. They are both based around Christmas but I love to watch them year round. By the way, I realize that my last post was in March so I will give you a little summary of where I have been and what I have been doing for the past few months. I graduated high school and then went to Colorado where I had a job as a waitress. I made bank!! Plus I went to a Halsey concert at Red Rocks which was amazing! And now, as you know, I am in college, loving life. I love the people, classes, college campus and I am taking life one day at a time. Closing off with a comic about loving life(or pastries?): 

The Important Things

So my school had a bomb threat on Friday and it really opened up my eyes to what really matters in life. Everyone was worried about their things back at the school when we were all out of the building and we were safe. We were in an educational lock down to begin with but I guess they found some sort of evidence because the next thing we know, we are walking over to the old elementary school to get away from the high school. My sister was freaking out over her lacrosse stick and my friends were worried about their phone chargers. I realized that those things weren't important, no matter how much they cost. I was in class during the educational lock down thinking Oh my gosh I really hope that the bomb doesn't blow up and kill all of the people I care about. Once everyone was out of the building, I was so relieved that no one got hurt that I didn't care about my stuff. I care more about the people in my life than the money or the physical things. Those don't matter as much as your friends or family. Well that's all I have for you today. Signing off with a comic that says your family can suck sometimes but you should still love them. 

Colorado Bound

So whenever I tell people that I am going to college in Colorado I think they just assume that I will be coming back. The answer to that is always, no I am not coming back. I plan on leaving for Colorado and once my whole family is down there, I will  be there for the rest of my life. Now during college my sister will still be in high school so I will come back up for breaks to see her and my parents but once she graduates, my parents are coming down to Colorado and I am there to stay. Now obviously I am not going to drop off the face of the earth and never contact my friends in Ohio but I might slowly drift away. I don't intend on coming back to Ohio to visit anyone after my sister is out of high school. Why do you think I'm not going to college in Ohio? Because I want to leave!

So my fellow readers, I will be going to college in Colorado and never coming back. No not even for my 10 or 15 high school reunions. I honestly think those events are stupid because it's just seeing how much better or worse your life turned out than your classmates. And yeah maybe you'll see a few old friends but if you weren't in contact with them before then, you probably don't care what they're doing anyway. 

I have good news!! I have, hopefully, found my roommate for college. I say hopefully because I'm still not totally sure if I am going to Colorado State because of the money issue but I'm still hoping. Anyways, she is exactly like me!! No not in physical appearance but she has the exact same personality as me!! And most people would say that this might be a problem but we have been texting for the past few days and we get along super well. I told her about the roommate idea and she really wants to do it too so we're both hoping it will work out. 

Anyways, I have to go, drama is going to start soon. Signing off with a minion video!! Sorry people who are at school with blocked wifi like me. I honestly didn't even watch this before I posted it so hopefully it's good because I can't see it until I get home :)

Musical!!!

Guess what my readers!!! In a couple of weeks I am going to get my license!! I realized that I was freaking out about the test when last night I had a dream about failing it. Apparently in the dream I started out the test by getting into the backseat to start to drive the car. I then complained that I couldn't drive because I couldn't see the road because the front seat was in my way. I got into the front seat and turned down a road, drove down a hill, and entered a football stadium!! So I'm definitely freaking out about that. 

On a better note, the musical is coming along great!! I am one of the Wardrobe Women for the musical Bye Bye Birdie! Today we are doing all of the blocking and tomorrow is the Crew Watch. We have to be totally off script by tomorrow which is worrying me because some people don't even know their solos. So that's not good. 

I think I have a little bit of writers block. I know, I'm writing this right now aren't I? But I mean in stories. I have to write a short story for my English class but I'm freaking out because I can't think of anything to write about that would be an actual SHORT story. I normally write full stories and trust me they are not short. 

Other than that, life is pretty good. Despite unreasonable fears and tons of work in school and the musical, I am doing good. I hope all of you aren't too stressed out with anything in your lives right now. I was the other day and I took a bath. I know, I know. "You're bathing in your own dirtiness." Well I'll have you know that I took a shower earlier that day and then I took a bath near my bedtime. Anyways, have a stress free day! Signing off with a Bye Bye Birdie poster thing. 

Getting in Gear

So this is referring to both to driving and to life in general. I just came back from this amazing trip in Colorado for winter break. However, when I came back to all of my regular duties in life at home, I freaked out. I was doing exactly the same things that I was doing before break but I guess coming back from that break made it different. Now I am back in gear and not stressing as much. And referring to driving, I am getting a lot better at it. One of my friends is so bad at driving that I fear for my life whenever I'm in the car with her. I have no idea how she got her license. 

Also on another note, there is a dance going on at my school called the Fine Arts Dance. It's for band, orchestra, choir, and drama students. I am in drama and I was freaking out for the past few days because I have to have a date. Normally for these dances you can just go with your friends but at this particular dance they are teaching you how to tango, polka, waltz, etc. So I had been freaking out because I had been flirting with this guy named Owen but then we just stopped and we didn't talk anymore. But, my sister asked him if he would be cool with us going to the dance together and he said yes! I would have asked him in person but she insisted in knowing if he was cool with it which was technically just asking him for me. But whatever. I am so excited I have not been able to stop smiling!!! Guys, my readers, be happy!!! Okay I have to go because senior year is killing me lol. Signing off with a be happy comic.

Finding Myself

It's official. I am taking a break from guys. I have made a few bad decisions in the past few weeks and I need to move on and focus on me. I really suck at self confidence so I'm going to start trying that now. Currently I am in the process of actually knowing how much I deserve. That I shouldn't settle for people who treat me wrong or who are only my friend when other people aren't around. And I've certainly had my fair share of not being treated right. A lot of people have. So I'd like to challenge all of you to figure out how special you really are and how much you truly deserve. Don't settle for anything less. I know this is hard to do and I know that I will struggle myself but it is best to find out exactly what you deserve in order to live a happy life. So I guess that's my inspiration for today. Also a little side note. I got so obsessed with Snapchat and I didn't even realize it. I am taking a week off from Snapchat in order to relieve me of my obsessiveness. I challenge anyone who is obsessed with a social media to take a week off and see how your life might be different. So I guess there's two challenges for you but doing them would definitely change your life for the better. That's all for now. Signing off with a very inspirational quote. 

The Struggle

Ok so I need some advice. I am going to vent about a problem I have because I literally have no one else to go to. I feel awkward talking about this to anyone else and since I don't know who you are and you don't know who I am, I feel comfortable typing this. 

So as I have typed before in these posts, I am dating a boy named Wesley. So today at lunch the guy my friend likes was texting her. She wanted me to see what he looked like so she took a snap chat and sent it to him. With me in it. I knew it was all going to go downhill from there. He snap chatted her back asking for my number. She gave it to him and he started texting me. He then asked me if I had a boyfriend. I said yes but of course he didn't freaking care! He was going to hang out with my friend this Saturday and he decided to invite me along. So I said sure thinking "No big deal". And then he continues to flirt with me and so I text my friend saying if it's ok if I come and she replied "Sure have fun on your date, now he likes you". Why does this always happen to me? And now he thinks I am going to text him tonight about what movie I want to watch with them on Saturday. Should I just not go? I don't want to ruin my friendship because of a guy! I still want to hang out with my friend but not with him around. And should I mention this to my boyfriend? I feel like he'll freak out but I'm not going to cheat on him! I'm not a cheater. 

Please help!!! There is a comment bar! I need help!!! Signing off with a comic for you.

Learning Everyday

First off, before I start writing this I'd like to say I'm sorry for it being a while since I've updated. I am so busy with school, work, friends, college, and my boyfriend that I have not had time to write on this. So on with the title prompt. A lot of people have been saying to me how much they hate school and they have senioritis and all that but it's not like if you leave school that you wont learn. Everyone is learning everyday. Learning how to cook, do the laundry, walk, talk, tie a shoe. Everything that you learn  is taught to you. 

And yeah, school is hard. I'm taking Calculus and I hate it!!! I wish that high school would teach actual meaningful stuff. For example, going grocery shopping, doing taxes, paying for college, college essays, writing a resume, or taking care of children. I mean I'm just going to have to ask my parents how to do all of that stuff when the time comes that I have to do it. But I will still have to learn all of that stuff. 

Just a funny comic to describe my last two days. Except I seriously don't know what made my stomach hurt. I ate nothing out of the ordinary and I am a very healthy eater. So I don't know... 

Well I guess that's all I have to say for this blog. Sorry it took so long for me to do it. So I'm signing off with a Foxtrot comic that is about an upcoming holiday!!

Abortion

No!! I'm not pregnant! You can stop freaking out now! No, I just heard that the Senate passed a bill that stopped funding towards Planned Parenthood. And then in my art class I have to do a controversial art project. I was thinking of doing mine on child abuse or abortion. But I mean I cannot believe they stopped funding for Planned Parenthood!! People need that to check for STD's too!! I'm not going to openly share my opinions on abortion I am just going to state some opinions that people have so that no one gets offended. People for abortion may argue about teen pregnancy or rape and girls being too young to have a baby. People against abortion may argue that people should not kill a living baby and that they can just give it to adoption or take care of it even if it was an accident. So everyone believes what they believe. 

So, controversial issues. Where to start? From gay marriage to child abuse to abortion to unequal societies and so much more. An example that my art teacher showed us for a controversial painting really inspired me. 

This is so deep!!! Oh my gosh! This is called "A Tale of Two Hoodies". He also painted a picture about how the NRA responded to that school shooting in 2012. 

What?!!! This is incredible! It makes such a deep statement! So I'm hoping to do the same with my art piece. And did you hear about the girl who made a painting of Donald Trump out of her own menstrual blood!! She did it because Donald Trump basically asked a girl reporter if it was her time of the month! That makes me so mad! Just because girls PMS doesn't mean you can blame everything we do on that! My art teacher was saying that yes it is kind of gross that she made it out of her own menstrual blood but if she just made a regular painting, no one would care. She is making a statement by painting it that way. Alright there's my rant for the day. Yeesh, there are so many problems in the world. So I'm signing off with another image with a powerful message. 

Senioritis

So I had a test today for Government and I probably should have studied for it because I'm pretty sure I did terrible on it. And you know what? I don't even care because this evening I had so much shit to do!!! I had to look at colleges and scholarships and essays and it took up my whole evening! So now I finally have time to do this post. I guess I just have to remember that colleges still look at senior year too. I probably won't even post tomorrow because I'm taking my senior pictures. So here's the shortest post reminding people to stop slacking! Ok whoo, signing off with an inspirational quote. 

Living My Life Through Others

So I know how I said yesterday that everyone is wasting their lives away on social media? Yeah I'm doing that now. I don't mean to but it's so much fun!! My sister introduced me to this new app called After School where people only from your school post stuff and it's really funny. People are even admitting who they like at our school because the posts are anonymous so no one knows who posted what. So that is how I spent my entire morning today. And by 10 in the morning, my phone was at 50%. So.... I suck. 

So of course when I looked up this picture there were tons of articles about cyber bullying and threats on this app. I haven't seen any in my school's feed yet but it's probably going to happen sooner or later. I feel like it's all fun and games at first and then it goes bad. 

I am also now obsessed with this app called Whisper. It's another anonymous thing where you can post sayings or confessions or whatever you want. But it isn't just with your school it's with everyone. I'm pretty sure cyber bullying has already started on this app. I found a post saying "The only time I can really show that I am hurt is when I'm in the shower". At the time I was looking at inspirational quotes and I found a quote that said "Your skin isn't paper, don't cut it".

So I posted that quote as a reply to that post and they replied to me. But they were nasty!! They said "I don't believe in self harm, way to judge". I wasn't judging!! I was just posting a quote!! 

I deleted my reply so that I never had to look at that response again. Some people just don't know when to stop. I love to help people so I thought, if this person is self harming themselves I want to help them because I am a nice person. I never say stuff because I'm judging. Even though that wasn't straight out cyber bullying, it still made me feel bad. 

I've heard that some people use whisper as a dating site but it's also just a place to admit stupid stuff that you can't say if anyone knew it was you. Here is an example of an After School post:

So it just appears like that with the writing and then a picture underneath it. Here is an example of a Whisper post:

So basically you can chose the font of the words and then pick a picture to go beneath it. So those are the apps that I am wasting my life on. And the thing is, if I just deleted all of it out of my life, it would make my life so much better. And I wouldn't even miss it because that isn't actually a part of your life. But I won't delete it because I love knowing what other people are doing and what is going on with everyone every second of the day. See!!! That's what I'm talking about!! You are not living your life for yourself! You are thinking about what other people are doing and how much cooler that is then what you are doing. So go out and do something cool!!!! You need to live your life and stop worrying about other's lives. 

Wow, I'm so glad I got that off my chest. The words just poured out of me. I'm going to go live my life now. Signing off with a Simpsons character with a message for me and for you. 

All The Time We Have

I cannot believe time!!

Ok, normally I don't like time because during school I hate waiting for the most boring class to end. But here's the thing, I spend my days waiting for school to get out and then urging the week to go faster so that I can get to the weekend. But then during the weekend I only spend a few hours with my family and the rest I spend at work, hoping the hours go faster. So the only real moments I enjoy are a few hours during the week and about half the days during the weekend. I'm totally wasting my life!! I only have so much time left before I go off to college and leave my family in Ohio. Plus everyone spends so much time watching T.V. and playing on their phones that they can't even have that time spent with their family!

I am going to try spending less time wasting time and more time with my family and friends. You never know how long you might have left. So I am urging everyone who is reading this post to stop with all of the useless time spent on your phone! You need to spend time with people! Get off the couch! Turn off the TV! Go outside! We only have a few warm days left until winter, we should be enjoying the last of it. Think about it. So I am signing off with a Garfield comic!!!

So Stressed

Hey so I haven't written on this in a while, sorry about that. I can't believe what went on in the last few days. I have so much freaking stuff to do!! If I was at home right now my dad would tell me to stop blogging and to go write my college admissions essay. Here is a list of things I need to do and their due dates:

1. College admissions essay due December 1st
2. Teacher recommendation letter due December 1st
3. Personal statement for college due December 1st
4. Get my licence by the end of senior year
5. Somehow have $13,000 in my bank account by the end of senior year

I am screwed!!!! Plus I have super huge writers block right now so my admissions essay and personal statement looks like crap. I can't think about anything to write about!! I am so stressed!! I need some inspiration. 

I just saw a quote that said "Stressed spelled backwards is desserts". I am so craving some desserts right now. I hate being stressed out!! So I guess this is a short post because I've got some other writing to do. Not that I can think of anything. So I'm signing off with a Hagar the Horrible comic. 

Kid Life

I want to be a kid again for just one day. Doesn't it sound fun to go back to when you have no responsibilities where you can just play with dolls and where you are energetic all day. Where you can act like an idiot and no one will tell you "Act your age!" 

I know this is going to be kind of a short blog but nothing has really happened to me recently. I mean this is probably going to jinx it and after I post this something will happen but I'll tell you about it tomorrow. To those that have not left and keep reading my posts I say Thank You! It is so great to know that people are actually enjoying what I am writing. 

So I don't actually have anything else to say but I'll try and think of something more interesting for tomorrow. Signing off with a Dennis the Menace comic!

Best Night Ever

Homecoming! The night of my dreams!! It was so much fun!!! Dancing with friends just brings so much excitement into my life!

I've decided that I am only going to be blogging during the week because the weekends are for me. Guess what! They have Sharkboy and Lavagirl on Netflix. That movie is so stupid and over dramatic but I love it anyways. My stepmom came in and watched the last half with me and then said "That was the worst movie I've ever seen" and then she turned on Gossip Girl. Just letting you know, my stepmom is not evil! She's very nice and I love her. 

Look at that!!! Taylor Lautner as a kid!! So cute! Oh and you know that guy Wesley in my "Guy Friends" post? Yeah it's all cool now because we're dating! Oh my god!! I only liked him as a friend and then on Homecoming night I started liking him! So still didn't keep a guy friend but got a great boyfriend. 

This is so true! My grandpa has threatened that if I ever bring my boyfriend over he is going to be cleaning his gun during the visit. 

I kind of want to tell any guy I have ever liked "If I stay up late for you, you mean something to me because I love my sleep". I am so tired right not because I stayed up so late texting Wesley. But it was totally worth it. 

Have any of you ever heard the song "New Americana" by Hasley? It's so good that I have been listening to it on repeat for the last three days. 

So right now I am sitting in class and my mascara and eyeliner from Homecoming is still on my eyes. It was caked on so much that it is literally still here from Saturday! It still looks good though. So I think that's it I really don't have anything else to rant or talk about. Signing off with a Foxtrot comic! 

Embarrassed?

I love my friends. Having a great friend is the best feeling in the world. I hate it when my friends do stupid things that make me look stupid with them and then I remember I love them! So I do the exact same thing. And what would you do without your friends? Even though they can be embarrassing as hell, you still love them anyway. Today at lunch my friend ate a orange peel (do not do this, its so bitter!!) and after realizing it was a terrible idea, she spit the peel back out on the table. I laughed so hard!! 

Because if you don't have embarrassing, life isn't as fun. And true friends accept your differences and problems. Dedicating this post to my friends who wont read this because they "don't like reading" I'm pretending they are reading this. I love all of my friends!! Here are minions in dedication to crazy, stupid, embarrassing, but amazing friends!

Bye my readers!!